285!

.....and I'll take it!!! Slowly slowly slowly..... I've stopped thinking of losing weight in terms of time... meaning I no longer am saying *I'll lose 20 pounds by Christmas* etc etc ... I'm just going to lose it.... however long it takes!!

On the upswing of things, my husband got a different job within his old company, and started the new position today .... the downside is that I'm going to have to give up the luxurious lifestyle I've been enjoying in the last 4 weeks that he hasn't been working.... I've been going to the gym every morning, whenever I want, staying as long as I want, and returning whenever I want - and I'll tell ya - it was fun!
Too bad it's ending.... tomorrow I'm going to have to bring my youngest with me and put him in the daycare at the gym, and I'm not sure how much time he'll allow for cardio :)

Oh well, I do have to make it work... and I will.

Always cold

Whenever I'm in the process of losing weight, I get so cold at night... Usually I'm always warm, warm hands, warm everything, but when I'm losing weight I just freeze. Tonight while watching TV I had a big sweater on, slippers and a big heavy blanket and I was still shivering!! So weird. My husband of course notices this, and the other night noticed that I WASN'T cold or shivering and jokingly asked whether I had *cheated* that day..... and I HAD! Crazy - but I had eaten a chocolate bar that afternoon and that night I wasnt cold.

I wonder why this happens? Is it a physiological occurance in my body where I dont have enough fuel to keep warm? Whatever it is, I find it very interesting! And the scale seems to reflect it the next day.....perhaps all that shivering shaves off a few pounds :)

Going out to dinner when you're *being good*

It sucks!!! We went to Montana's tonight with the kids - just to get out of the house and do something - as we haven't really gone out since hubby was laid off, and I just found it all just completely unfair! We went to a rib house and the kids had their usual unhealthy fair (they eat very healthy 98% of the time, so I let them go a little crazy on the fries etc when we got out) and my husband had wings... WINGS!! And let me tell ya - I wanted one those little buggers. Thankfully he ordered them waaaay too hot for my liking, so I didnt even have one.... no, I just sat there eating my dry burger on a whole wheat bun and side salad. B.O.R.I.N.G. The REASON I like going out is to eat stuff I never eat at home, so it just wasn't fun. My kids were fun, my husband was fun, but the food.... not fun.

Oh well, I weighed in at 286.5 this morning after spending 2 1/2 hours at the gym, so I'm happy. Cant move my legs, but I'm happy :)

Out of the blue.......

Well, here I am. Back. After more than a year's absence. Crazy.

This is what has happened in the past... ohhh i dont know, 13 months or so!

Moved across the country (to where there is lots of snow... brrrrr!), started walking everyday, lost weight, got plantar fasciitis, stopped walking, gained weight, had a fun summer, hosted my inlaws for 4 weeks, got kids started in school, started volunteering, husband got laid off (ummm why did you move us all the way out here then?!), started going to the gym everyday, started losing weight, realized I need more than just good nutrition and exercise to keep this up, posted to my blog.

That's it! At this current time I have lost an amazing 6 pounds since I last posted..... woohoo!!!! please please hold the applause!!!! so pathetic. There I said it - it IS pathetic - however I refuse to give in to my negative self talk, so I'm owning what I did or did not do this past year, and moving on.....

WEIGH-IN #3

I'm the same - 296... would like to blame it on the *molasses* excuse (see post below), but it's simply the result of some mindless and unhealthy eating this past week. I really do have to work on a) being more planned in my eating and b) working through my self-sabotaging. If ONLY I was as good at eating well as I am at sabotaging - I'm sure I could win the saboteur olympics if there was such a thing!

I'm thinking that this week every time I want to eat junk, I will first take a full length picture of myself and see if I still feel I *deserve* that cookie or whatever. And if this doesn't work, then I will get naked for said picture. Hard to deny reality with the bumps and lumps staring at me!!

WEIGH-IN #2

So I've stayed at 296. My digital scale registers my weight sometimes, but not all the time, so I'm going to hold off on switching to that one as my official weigh-in scale til next week.

30 pounds in 4 weeks feels great, but I also know that my weight loss will slow down like molasses from now on, and I need to make sure that this fact doesn't ruin my mental and emotional outlook!

oh happy happy day...

So today I weighed in at 296...AND, I actually registered on my digital scale (the one that only goes to 300) at 299! So, I'm hoping to be able to use that one from now on. I'll have to eat (pardon the pun) the 3 pound difference, but whatever - it feels good to be on my way!

1st OFFICIAL WEIGH-IN

and I lost another pound :) Not quite as incredible as my first 3 weeks, but I had one of those *gotta eat all my favorite junk because I'm starting in earnest on Thursday* kinda weeks. And then I forgot to weigh myself on Thursday. hmmmmm *forgot* - how convenient!

Trying to navigate the gong show that is my house. My parents have left and my husband goes back to work tomorrow, so I'll be officially on my own with 3 people under the age of 4! ACK!

I had to post this picture

I glanced at it on hide those cookies' blog and it took me a few seconds to register what he's doing with that cookie dough. Have to laugh but I also find it sad..... the fat girl's version of crack!

2 weeks post-partum.....

and I'm down 27 pounds so far. WOOHOO!! Thank you breastfeeding and not being able to drive and so have no way to get out and buy crap food on my own!!

This is as per my old analog scale. I still dont register on my digital scale as it only goes up to 300 pounds, and if I remember correctly, when I first bought it, there was a 7 pound difference between it and my old analog scale. I'm hoping I will be able to use the digital as of next Thursday. In which case I wont really show a loss, but oh well. I think it's probably more accurate than my old ancient one and I like to see those decimals. Nothing like seeing you've lost 2.1 pounds..... soooooo much better than just 2 :)